Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Ahh..cinema.

Sitting down to watch "All the Kings Men".

Her and me

As I write this, she is sitting on my lap, balanced between my arms. She is making those jerky movements with her arms that 3 month old babies make. And constantly cooing and drooling. She is wearing an orange onesie and dotted blue and beige pyjamas. She is smelling of Calendula oil which I massaged her with an hour ago. Her hair has grown.

Me. I am wearing my black lululemon yoga pants. Because they are the only things that will comfortably fit my post pregnancy body. A black nursing T-shirt. Nursing , as in it has these flaps you can conveniently lift when you have to nurse. My hair is dripping, since I just had a shower. The shower that followed my half an hour of swimming and sauna. My hair has grown too.

Gia and me. We are slowly, but surely getting used to each other. She knows me now. My face, that is. I am getting to know her every day. Her soul.

I call her girlfriend, and whenever I go, "hey, girlfriend", she instantly smiles and her face lights up.

She is that. My friend. My daughter. My little Gia.

And what a billiant end. She just pooped. And I must go change her diaper.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Black

I like black. There is something so "out there" about black. Something so raw and then something so honest in it's rawness. It's bloody honest.

To me , wearing black just feels right. It does not feel like I am trying hard. Oh no, it just settles in. Cloaks me with an easy comort and yet exudes so much energy at the same time. It's so peaceful and then so powerful . So strong. So, there.

Just feels so right. Like an armour. Solid as hell. Bring it on kind of solid as hell. The perfect defense mechanism. A camoflage. Maybe, a mask.

It lends me the energy that I sometimes lack. Gives me the confidence that I am not sure I have. Makes me stronger. Feels like a signature.

It's definitly a friend and now, more than ever I feel very close to the color. It has come in and gone out of my life very frequently. But this time, it's back and I know it is here to stay. Because I want it to.

Let there be music

Music makes me happy. It takes me away.

It lifts my soul, gets me through the day, especially through the mundane parts of the day.

I am rediscovering it.

For a few hours. Or all day. Dido. Or Anwar. Rhythm. Or lyrics. Country. Or trance.

So, let the music begin.

A lazy drunken ABBA weekend

Kept Rohan home on Friday. It's nice to give hin the break from school sometime. Took him and Gia to the ROM. Gia slept through it. Rohan had a good time. I survived. So all was good. I had the cocktails to go to later in the evening- thing from Rohan's school- getting together to say goodbye to Lara's mom, since they were leaving for Norway on the weekend. Gia gave Rajesh a hard time. Refused the bottle, kept waking up, cried. Fed her when I cam back and she wa fine then. Then we watched Hancock. The only bit worth watching was how good Charlize Theron looked. rest was crap. What were you thinking, Will Smith?
Saturday, Lazy day. Syaen, Yvette Alyssa came overfor dinner. Beef curry and aloo parathas from Little India. Lots of Cosmopolitan. Lots of drunkeness. Listened to music I had downloaded befire. Dido. ABBA. Talked. More cosmopolitan. Kids made a huge mess. Everyone had a good time. Wound up late. Very late.
Sunday. Woke up at noon. Lazy for a few hours. Then cleaned up. Felt good about it . Have been not doing the whole Sunday cleaning thing . Lit agarbattis, house smelled clean. Rajesh and me talked. Then, Yevette and me went to watch Mama Mia. Across the street. Carlton Cinemas. Fantastic movie. An even more fantastic Meryl Streep. And the music made me want to dance. The mother daughter sequence - touching!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Strike One

Cooked in the morning. Biryani (which turned out a bit mushy, yet delicious). Channa dal (for tommorow). Mailed Rohan's SIN card application. Uploaded cottaging trip pics to Picasa. Sorted some pics in Picasa while Gia slept. Spoke to Ruhi. Laughed till tears rolled. ( Best friends kinda laughter) Walked with Gia in stroller to her doctor's appointment. She got her first shot. I got my check up done - Pap and all that. Also got the refferal for the dermatologist- the pesky wart's time has come. Walked back. Small Iced Cappucino. Stroll around Winner's. Now home.
Not bad for one day.

Score

Life: 1
Self: 0

Working on flipping that over.